well,first of all I agree with Carelli and I guess somehow your emotions are miscalculated, you don't have to feel guilty for being a bad person if all your feeling is lonliness or need of companionship, maybe you have another reason that makes you feel like a bad person? about the loneliness issue, I want to make sure that you understand the point that you don't have to have a girl to be whole and you are well enough capable of surviving on your own, also it is a wonderful thing to have once you do and it makes your life (sorry for the mushy expression) all butterflies and roses. I don't know the process exactly , whether it just happens or you have to look for it,so whichever works for you, but the most important thing is for it not to be a game which would waste your time and that is something you say you are short in, not to mention playing with others emotions isn't exactly a good deed even if they're playin too. I believe you'll meet your soulmate somewhere along your way

so don't be upset or lonely just cuz it hasn't happened yet. maybe you can try of cutting your self some slack, take a break and go around town, you can call it "me time" and just do what you feel like, it might help in relieving your stress, go to parties where you dance in not playing your music (that won't count

) try hooking up and hopefully it all goes well

. good luck! [note: your actions are your responsibility so please don't mess up and blame it on me

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